It's been a while!

Like every other time it has been a long time since I have felt like posting. One because i really have run out of things to really write about. Two is because i am lazy when it comes to "thinking" about what to really say and what is worth writing in my blog. Today was a hard one. but like any other day, the sun will rise and the sun with set, and tomorrow is always a new day. 

Today's topic: Disappointments and let downs.

The roads seem to be a little bit more rough than usual. Seems to be more of piercing cold wind, and life seems to be in fast forward around me as i stand there. Never ask the weak to hold a world. Expectations, and hopes in general leave room for let down. So why is it that we spend our life hoping and having all sorts of expectations for people that we know to begin with are just going to let you down. Because really everyone will eventually. Why not live life freely. Our goal in life seems to  literally already be programmed in our heads. We all want to feel that happiness one way or another. We want to share it with other people that mean the most to us. Sometimes finding happiness isn't in the big picture though. It's finding it in moments that will only be moments or memories in the end. Maybe true happiness in life only lasts for that split second, because its not supposed to last, that would make us selfish. Maybe we are just really supposed to find happiness is the small things, like loving who you are, loving who is in your life, and love what you are doing in life. You have to learn to let go of expectations, and just live.

this blog doesnt make any sense. i am tired, my mind is all jumbled up right now. Im sorry.

I will just tell you this then, finally on break here in italy. We have until the 9th. I finally got my permit to live here in Piacenza. WOOO! Christmas is coming, doesnt really feel like it much, since i am away from home. My host family, i love them. I love being here. I am so grateful for all this. Yeah, I will update soon.

Forever yours,

Liz