Having the same realization again, but even more detailed?

No person is as blind as the person who chooses not to see what is right in front of them.
In your life what do you have? Answer that question for yourself and see what your first answers were. Were they things you have gained like achievements or are the things that matter in life? Good, great, amazing people that being your family your friends, the little moments you cherish for life, or was it those things that mean nothing in the end? I know I have touched on this subject of you need to realize the smaller things in life and the things that matter the most and realize what all is really in front of you no matter where your point is in life, and no matter the goal and I am sure everyone is like shut up with all that! But really this past weekend and weeks have made me see more things that i have really said and mentioned before... well atleast from where I can remember, because i honestly dont go back and read my blog entries after I write them, so if they have ever sounded sketchy that is why. Moving right along, this week I was on the website on facebook for the group and so many people are complaining about how they want to do trips this trips that why doesnt my club do trips or offer any trips how do i get to do trips, but can i ask you something? (FOR THOSE WHO DONT KNOW WE HAVE DIFFERENT CLUBS THAT OFFER TRIPS LIKE TO DIFFERENT PLACES WHILE WE ARE ON EXCHANGES AND WE HAVE TO PAY TO LIKE GO TO FRANCE OR TO THIS THING CALLED EURO TRIP OR THE LONG ITALY TRIP OR WHATEVER IT MIGHT BE ANYWAYS...) why do you need to go on a trip? i mean yeah i understand WOAH I WANNA SEE FRANCE like who doesnt want to go to france!?!?! yeah but is that why you left the states, to go on as many trips as possible and not study and learn italian and make new friends and bonds with the family you have been put with or i mean was that just me and a few other people i have ran into? I hear people complaining constantly about how they feel bored because they havent gone out to discos or they have to be home at a certain time or something along those lines but really why? If i wanted to go to clubs and party and be out at all hours of the night constantly than really i would have NEVER left home. Life is too short to do nothing but is going out constantly and having no point in doing those things considered something or nothing? I must sound like i have no friends or something or like i am never going to go out or something like that. NO believe me thats not the case but i am just stating a fact that maybe people miss the point of this all. Or maybe its me who is wrong in some sense. Quite honestly i LOVE going home right after school or for dinner or anytime like that and being able to sit there with my host mom and host father and just eat together for once in my life without having complaints about other things and just eating and then sitting there and just TALKING with them for like an hour after we have already finished eating. I like being out riding my bike eating gelato or eating or drinking and trying new random stuff. I love being in italy with people who are so welcoming and who are always trying to smile. I know this is a small city that i am in like really small but i love it. Of course i want to see other things while i am here but that isnt something that was my first thought. I love that my friends at school always invite me places and just love to sit there and tell me stories about their lives like i have known them forever or ask me my opinion on things or just always include me like i am not from america or something. Things like that are the good things in life, and in my honest opinion is what true happiness and true self peace feel like. Is being able to just be okay with who is in your life and who isn't, who is waiting for you back at home and who wont be there, who makes the effort to just smile and say hi to you, to be able to be okay with just talking and sitting and not partying or yelling and running around, to be okay with just taking a walk and a bike ride to window shop then to actually to want and have to have it. To me I am content with my surroundings and i am so secure and okay with everything back at home that its like worries dont exist anymore.
Although I just went on and on about this whole trips thing, there is like two trips that i actually want to take.
One trip is kinda just a want and its to somehow go see my friend Alex Williams in france! Since her and I get along so well and we went to outbound camp together it would be amazing to meet up there so she can show me everything!!!<333 so thats just you know out there but yeah.
Next, which actually i think i am going to be able to do because i already got my parents approval, already got the way to pay for it, talking to my home club about it and just gotta get the okay here for it on all the travel details and stuff like that but is to go for three weeks into Tanzinia, Africa over christmas and new years to help build a hospital and houses there. This is the only thing that interests me with all i have like i think i would have begged and begged for my parents to say yes if they would have said no. This is something i would literally love love love to do. And at this point everything looks good, so i thank god for this amazing service trip that i will most likely be going on :)
i miss everyone back at home and love everyone!
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