I am sure everyones like I wonder what's up with all these strange statuses, or just in general whats been happening. Usually people blog about what they do on a daily, or what they buy or where they have been going... i mean i will will to but in general thats not what i feel like i want to do. More on emotions and experiences that no body quite sees when they are just presented with that scene but more of what you see when you are truely looking and looking for detail.
So it's been what, about a week since I have blogged. More or less because i have just been down, not down because of homesickness but just down. I have learned so far that no matter what people say about being crushed and thrown to the floor because of one persons words you have to consider all possible reasons for what was said. Bad day, harsh relationships just whatever. No matter what i have thought in the beginning, like "oh words will always scar, you cant take back what you say" yeah that might all be true but in reality words are words and soon will be forgotten. Consider why you experienced such a harsh down mood, consider why you are feeling crushed and broken... Maybe its because it was time to be shown that you can build you self back up on your own. Maybe just to show you that you don't need anyone to give you a hand up that really it's just you being to lazy to do it on your own. Maybe its just to show you that you really can do anything. Rebuilding yourself up even when you feel like you cant isnt something that comes easy. It comes with really just contemplating with your self and no one else. You feel like its just you in a silent world of just thoughts gone wrong and words that have no meaning, in reality its everyone trying to help you but you deny it all. This is something you have to learn on your on. you have to push forward and fight through that block. The block that really isnt indestructable, it just needs to be pushed down. You get passed the wall and it feels like nothing else could possible be in the way, so you never look down to watch your step. You know that feeling you get when you miss a step going downstairs and you get that sudden rush of weirdness running through you, or when you didnt know a step was there while your walking up and you step up but you werent ready for it? Well thats what it feels like sometimes when having to deal with certain things that come up while being away because it really only lasts for a second and then you just keep on going. Sometimes we have to remember to look down every once in a while to realize where we are going and what the road is like because we cant always THINK its going to be okay and that its not going to have speed bumps or pot holes.
I have met incredible people here in Italy, people i feel that will leave an amazing impression when i leave here in June. June might seem really far to everyone now, but i will be here a month as of tomorrow and literally I can not believe it at all. It feels like i left yesterday but then again it feels like i have been here forever. I love it here in italy, i love that people see the little things in life as some of the biggest things, i love mozzerella cheese, i love bread, i love olive oil and vinegar on my salads, i love being embarressed because i dont know what people are saying at times because then the next time i will know what they are saying, i love getting to meet new people and listening to what they have to say because its never the same story, i love my host family, i love my rotary district and club because all of them are so amazing, i love that no matter who you meet they will always smile at you, and i love all the people in my school teachers, janitors, and students and alllllll of it. (sorry got a little typing happy with that L lol). This whole experience has pushed me to my limits already. I have learned that things wont always go as planned but thats okay because you just go with it. Things wont always be a big deal as we make them out to be especially with things back home because there is nothing you can do is use words to fix them because they are in the same country as you. I have learned that things arent always what they seem to be to the eye, but when analyzing them to there smallest details could show you the biggest picture out there. People won't always be what you expect, but sometimes they are better. I have learned how to remain calm on situations i would never stay calm about and just laugh at them. I can now walk into a room with my head held not know a single word of italian and say HI! My name is Liz and im from Texas, and that alone gets me the attention of about ALL of the people in the room. Some times understanding more than we set out to understanding being the language and how people live but what about how they interact with eachother, or the small questions that maybe they dont get to talk about often, or helping people out with things that normally they never have help with, or just listening to them could make a difference in someones life alone.
My host family, they are amazing people alone. I learn new things constantly and I love them.
My counselor, Lorenza. She is amazing women. She is independent and so loving. She invites Hunter and I into her home like we have known her since we were little and doesnt have care in the world. I love her so much.
My English teacher Mrs. Soldi. This women I feel so comfortable around just because she has a go to attitude and seems to be one of the most understanding people i have met yet. She always has a smile on her face and is always so nice to everyone. She holds something in her heart, that many people dont show anymore. She is a wonderful person.
I am not sure of her name at this time but she is the mom of this girl named Silvia who i love already she fits in with hunter and i so easily and so well its awesome!:) but her mother is such a sweet ambitious lady, who pushes herself to speak english with us even if she embarresses herself and i love it. she just goes kiss me! and we give kisses on the cheeks and she complimented my cooking and it made me feel amazing.
I love it here because of things like this. Meeting people like this, and getting to randomly just meet them is what is amazing and they have no problem in acting like they have always known you.
I feel like im just running on with this, and since i didnt really feel like blogging to begin with i am done for tonight. I have decided that i think i am going to start video blogging once a month to conclude on everything and just add it to the blog so everything will be good!
ummm check out the pictures on my wall photos album and italian life even though i havent updated! skype me! follow me on twitter! add me on facebook! read my blog! whatever!
I wanted to be tall, but if the river is taller than me i have to remember that i can swim.
<3 have a good day!
I wanted to be tall, but if the river is taller than me i have to remember that i can swim.
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